So last night i spent a lot of the time emailing cute geek. we argued at first and he told me he wish he never met me and that i was insane. yeah its pretty hard to handle when your trying to figure yourself out.
I know i did wrong in lying to him and im pretty much paying the price. Knowing someone you care about wont even allow you to see them for an hour...its hard to grasp.
I found out alot since he changed his number...different girls he has tried to get it on with while he was appartenly deciding if he wanted to be with me. honestly how can a guy care about you if he is trying to get into numerous girls knickers??? it just shocks me. ive known him for about 6 months and never in those 6 months have i felt like he cared about me. and i think thats made 'me' worse. i feel paranoid when i talk to him. he lies so much about who he is, where he has been. He made it hard for me to trust him and then he has a go at me about it! fair enough we were never together but jesus man give me some respect! if you wanna fuck around then tell me straight rather then sitting around saying i dont know what i want from you. jesus boy get some balls!!
Now he thinks im out to ruin his life....hardly....deleting girls off your msn profile cos u reckon u have no idea who they are...im not stupid.... im pretty much done trying to care about him. whats the point...
if someone can quite easily cut you out of their life then surely they never cared? he reckons he did but come on the evidence is there....it seems it was just sex and im back to square 1 :(
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