Last night my brother had a girl who is a friend round...altho they should be getting together ;) haha anyway....she has something wrong with her....cant remember how to spell it so not going to embarrass myself! lol! but i finally told my brother whats been going on with me and that i think i may have bi polar...he then laughs and says this girls mum has bi polar and everytime she is described to him he sees alot of her behaviour in me....so he reckons i should talk to her mum about it and see what i can do....
its quite strange really because my mum is finding it awkward to be around me at the moment...in fear she will say something wrong...which she does do everytime lol! i dont blame her...she thought i was pregnant when i told her i needed to talk to her...
I think im coming to terms with knowing how i feel and knowing something isnt right...but what now? what do i do about it? i suppose a long awaited trip to the doctors and have that weird moment where you say doctor i feel crazy.
i find it hard writing on here sometimes...thinking who could be reading it, judging me. After the nasty formspring thing i had yesterday morning it makes me question everything....i mean they have said they are a friend of mine in the past and ive only confided in 1 friend that i think i have bi polar..... :S does it mean its her?
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